Craving for a Good Dinner

I was so tired and sleepy last night I slept before 1am. Damn it on a Friday night I slept earlier than any other working days! Anyhow.. I had a great sleep all the way and I finally drag my ass outta bed and back again almost all day being online.

Waiting and gonna start watching Gossip Girl. Seems like the in-thing now...

Was craving for some good food and I suggested to go Swensens, with the family. There's one just at Compass Point but Mum wanted to go to Changi Airport, T3. Fine... We went and its Earle Swensens, which I hate!! Took a sky train to T2 and the line at Swensens was just too massive. Already 8.30pm, we were all starving!

Settled at Tong Shui Cafe, aka the worst HK cafe among all the others. $79 totally didnt justify and not worth for the meal. Luckily, today is Elroy's treat. Lol... There goes my craving for a good dinner...

Went for a short walk at T3... The Body Shop having some sale, bought 3 bottles of body wash - Mango, Olive and Orange. Harnn & Thann finally stock up the moisturizer and I bought it too. Wanted to wait till I go to Bangkok but heck it, it wont be that much of a difference. Will go there and see, if at least $10 cheaper I'll buy and stock up!

Hotel Intercontinental, Bali

By the beach... I like this pic :)

They have these tents near the beach

Nicely done up and very romantic!

But they only serve set dinner for the tents...

The flower deco on the floor

Bali volcano... the dearest driver said he must bring us to visit this :S

Dont even know what this place is called...

Just another tourist attraction

Which we finish 'touring' within 5-10mins...

Will continue more pics tomorrow... Took many of the lovely skies and clouds

Movie time? I guess... Nothing much to do anymore...

Roley's not moving to Singapore anymore, for now...

Let's look forward to Bangkok! :D

Surprise Birthday

Yet another weekend is here! No plans... Perhaps I just wanna rest and spend time with myself? Well, kinda feeling emo-emo again...

Anastasia's birthday this Saturday... We been planning for a surprise dinner party for her since last week. So many change of plans and eventually, we did it last evening before she flies off to Milan!

The Wonderful Team
Herman, Zoey, Me, Anastasia, Natally, Caroline and Eileen

We went to Braise at Sentosa!
I booked her birthday cake at Orchard Hotel the day before and got Eileen to collect it before coming to the office :)

Its a pretty new restaurant... Just nice, we suppose to try out new restaurants!

22pax... Amanda kinda blew the bubble earlier but little did Anastasia knows... That her other friends were also invited!! All effort by Carol :)

Can tell from her face she was really stunned but very happy!

The food was great, place was fantastic.

Gabby on the same flight to Milan, so I got him to do a little surprise for Ana as well but damn it, the flight got delayed till 4am and Gabby no longer doing that flight! Shit! Plan ruined. But well...

She was happy and high with wine and champagne. Hee...

Her little present from me will come back along with Travis this Monday early morning!

Hmmm... What will happen on mine?

I also finally got my phone! Samsung Soul U900! All thanks to Jai! Appreciated it so much, really. Am happy now but the speaker is kinda weird. Gonna bring down to the shop or something. Waiting for the screen protector to launch too!

Frantz will be traveling when I get to Bangkok. Plans ruined! Why does people/things around keep ruining my plans?! Hmpf!

Ok, I guess tonight is going to be a movie night. Peaceful!

Villa Luna - Bali

Still having my gastric even after taking meds from the doctor. It was better but it starts all over again and the weather is too warm to be helping!

Got a useless 'robortic' reply from M1 customer service. Whatever they write to me now... Gonna switch for sure after my contract ends. Period!

Villa Luna - Bali

This is the walk-way after entering the main door

It is gorgeous with pool and all...

4-bedrooms villa...

Best thing in the villa is...

This!!

The living room

Relax one corner

Connected to the kitchen

Nothing fancy, the maids cant even make scrambled egg for me :(

The master-bedroom with King sized bed and this is behind the bed...

Linked to the wardrobe area...

And the open concept bathroom!

Outdoor shower

To be honest, I didnt shower in peace throughout the entire stay!!

Here's another room... Queen sized bed

Wardrobe and dressing table space

Shower area with proper standing rain shower

The bath-tub is surrounded by water!

Like this!

The designer missed out the ceiling, its nice with a little opening but when it rain, all water goes into the bath tub!

Last but not least, my dog bowl lookalike ash-tray!! Arghhh

More pictures to be posted day by day...

I got a weird bruise at the back of my arm. Must've gotten it in Bali but I cant be sure how! Hmm...

Celebrating Anastasia's birthday tomorrow before she leaves for Milan! Very soon I'll be traveling again... I'll be gone 1st and 3rd week of June!

Arghhh... Pain!

Roley MIA again!

Down with Gastric

After scolding M1, I am down with really bad gastric!! I am in great pain now, have not sleep the whole night and in cold sweat! I am still phone-less and couldn't contact anyone. How wonderful this is...

Found a spare phone, really old. Gotta look for the charger before I can at least get contacted. Gonna be on MC today. So much for a better week after a good break. Damn!

Gastric plus menses discomfort just makes things feel a lot more worse than ever! I must be so pissed with M1 that my dinner wasnt even properly digested! If this is USA, I would've sue them for that! You can basically sue people for almost everything over there! Like irritating neighbours turning music on too loud and disturbed you or trying to damage your ears. Lol

Dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.................................

Still Phone-less

Did some research and decided to get the new Samsung Soul U900. Fine... M1 has it and Jai helped me by reserving an unit at Sengkang M1 shop as the Paragon outlet is sold out. Apparently, this model is sold out at many places.

Fucking M1 can suck my cock, if I have any!

Just plain stupid. I am 2mths away to be eligible for an upgrade of my line and guess what? They cant do exception for me to upgrade now even though I am willing to extend the contract for another 24mths which is the standard! For those of you who doesnt know about the policy, telco in Singapore tie people down with contracts! If I can upgrade the line now, the phone cost me $468 but since they refused to let me do so, it will cost me $698.

Seriously, not that I cant afford it but I am so not willing to let them earn my money this way. They are already making money from my bills! Which is easily $150-$200 every month! How much is that for another 24mths compare to the $200+ difference on the phone? Tell me... Brainless??

Anyhow... Looking for alternative to get the phone now. I rather pay the $698 to others like a distributor than to M1 and there will be no contract with distributor! M1 even have the face to offer 15% discount off the retail price which is $798! Are they fucking high?? 15% big fuck?

They are a telco, they should be making money out from bills and not the phones! They should be eager to tie customer down with contracts and not letting them go with other telco!

Some people I know using Singtel and Starhub been receiving vouchers every year. I been with M1 for fucking 10yrs and I receive NONE! I dont deserve any? Maybe its really time to change a telco since I can retain my number. $250 to breach the contract doesnt sound that expensive suddenly! I didnt even receive a pathetic $100 voucher which some of my friends did!

To make it sound worse, some of my friends ask M1 why they didnt receive the voucher and M1 told them that they are not eligible cos they didnt spend enough? Their subscription plans are not the higher value ones? Their average bill is less than a certain amount? This is all bullshit! I used to be on one of the highest value mobile plan and I didnt even get the pathetic $100 voucher! People give $500! I wonder if they are even aware of that and the fact that I dont fucking care and still sticking with them for 10 fucking years!

The fact that they just launch an ad campaign recently saying that they listen to their customers. Well, this would be a great test to see if they really do listen or they all have hearing problem. I might be a small fly comparing to people chalking up thousands on their bills. What about comparing me with those who spend less than $50 a month? I've heard of these people getting special offers by M1 customer service and I didnt even make noise. Now I am very curious to find out!

Losing the phone is my own responsibility, I was being careless myself but being the preferred telco, they should at least be offering some help. I can jolly well pay them $250 to terminate the contract, say 'bye-bye' and go to their rival telcos, buy new phone at special price that comes with a new line! I am writing all these just because it makes no sense to me and I want to make my point across.

I keep thinking about being 2mths away... It just pisses me off! If its 10mths I'll have nothing to say! Argh!

My line is now active but I am not holding any phone till tomorrow when I get the spare one from the office. Am hunting down Samsung Soul elsewhere now... Fingers crossed!

Phone Lost

Lost my phone just before checking in at the airport to Bali for the long weekend!! Now phone-less... Will update soon. Need to settle my phone first! Saw one I like but I bet its out of stock! Pray for me!

Please text me and identify yourself after 2pm, I should get my phone and SIM card by then!

Nitez!

James Blunt - All The Lost Souls Tour

Last Friday at Kevin Seah Haute Couture 1st Anniversary... Thats the typical Tim look on photo! Lol... I love my dress from Pull & Bear :)

Finally met up with Eries for dinner and some shopping on Monday. I think we didnt see each other for 2mths? Ever since Batam! NYDC for dinner, I bought quite a bit of nonsense stuff. Stock up my M.A.C concealer, bought a nice pink nail polish for myself and Eries blah blah blah... All I do is spend money!


Tuesday, 13 May - James Blunt, All The Lost Souls Tour

Here comes the man!

In suit...

I was on 2nd row!! Up close!!

Time to time he goes to the piano...

Quite a few times actually...

The back-drops at the concert were just awesome! See the butterfly??

Now his face! And the collage are just all his pictures, like how the concert promotion poster looks like...

He not just play the piano, he also jumps on top and dance!!! So high! But he was singing 1973, not High..... That was the first song he performed :)

See the background? Its a video playing... No Bravery, about war...

He keeps having to change the guitar for different song...

Many people didnt expect...

....the concert to be so high!

He even jumps off the stage, ran one round at the side to interact with the fans!

His whole band is just awesome... He is def not just standing there singing type oh please!

Oh! And suddenly, a big 'dong' came down and guess what? He hit it hard then all lights just went off and the whole band just walked to the backstage! Damn..... It cant be done! Not just yet!!

Yesssssss!!!

He hasnt sing my fave song!!

And then he did... Same Mistake! It worth back every single cents!
Although Jon paid for my ticket *Ahem* Thanks Jon!!

I love concerts! I love artistes who can really sing well live and entertain the crowds! James Blunt is just awesome!!

He and his band came out again and performed Same Mistake and 1973 for finale. Everyone just sway and sing along...

He sang all my faves, Goodbye My Lover too... Which he said was told its a popular funeral song whereas You're Beautiful is a popular wedding song. Lol... He said it is so extreme he wonders what will be next!

The only song I fancy which he didnt perform is Tears And Rain. Its still all good...

He took out his camera from his pocket and ask us to say "Sausages!" So cute!!

I will die to have that 1st row seat if Damien Rice and Jason Mraz ever come!! As long as I still work at where I am working now I know I will get the chance to get the promoter seats. Even if I have to pay alot more I will.

James Blunt actually threw his guitar pick to that little girl sitting right infront of me!! And then his drummer threw her his drum stick when they were taking a round to thank the crowds. Arghhh!!

I wanna learn guitar!!!

Warwick Avenue

I should change the location to.... Not sure where yet...

Jon and I decided to watch Iron Man and so we did. At the same time, he got his new car and its pretty good! With nice number plate too :p

A quick dinner at Kenny Rogers which didnt taste as good but I had my macaroni cheese and I feel satisfied. Iron Man was fantastic! I didnt wanna watch it at first actually but everyone been saying how good it is. The effects are just awesome and I didnt know Robert Downey Jr is so charming!

Went to That CD Shop after... Jon happily bought 4 CDs... I was drooling over that Hotel Costes collection with a velvet drawer case! Fucking beautiful!! We bought some heart-shaped bak-kwa(bbq pork) just to eat for fun and bought drinks from McCafe.

Gonna spend time with my meimei Eries tomorrow for dinner and some shopping... I tried to MIA today and well... Nobody actually cares anyway :)

Angry

I NEVER get angry. I only get angry with stupid things happening around me but I am NEVER angry for long and I am NEVER angry with my love ones. NEVER... Even when they did me wrong, I still forgive them and even if I get angry with them, it will only be a short while... Those who knows me well know this for sure.

But I am actually ANGRY now. All I ask for is to go out and have fun, meet up with everybody and I even offered to pay. I understand I am just another somebody. I understand everybody else has their own plans and programs. I am just extra.

I've decided to stay home. I've decided to ignore smses and calls.

I've also decided to give up... I think its time. I am tired of being played around like a stupid toy. I wonder if I am fun to play with, maybe I am cos I believe most of the things you said and whatever things you said actually affects me alot in terms of my mood.

You think I was joking about leaving and not contacting anyone? I can if I want to do it, I have my ways to stay in contact with those I want to.

Happy Mother's Day to Mummy... Somehow these words are hard to come out from my mouth sometimes... Let me buy you something nice on your birthday instead.

Exhausting

Before I start with all the sad rantings of my life, let me congrats Kenix and Eddie for getting ROM today! Cant wait for the AD next year! Lol... If I am still around and have someone to bring with me ok?

Life has been exhausting... Mentally and Physically. Everyday is about work and work now. Social life has also became part of work. I start to dislike meeting people, talking to people and be in the crowd sometimes. Although being alone is sad but there are times I just wanna be alone.

Had an event last evening which was pretty boring. Tim came for a while... Really appreciate it. Herman left early cos someone at the event wore the same shirt as him! Thank God his guests already came and left so his job is done. I stayed on..... Waited quite a while for Anastasia then to Orchard Hotel for another event, just to take a look.

Walked out of the ballroom and spotted Raphael. There were so many people there, his phone was off and we met... Not sure why it feels like an awkward moment but it was nice to see him again. He texted me later in the night, telling me he's leaving the place and was drunk. I was asleep already...

After 2 ciggies with Zoey, I left. Went home without any dinner and super exhausted. I just shower, check emails, put the music on and sleep. I simply got knocked out. Although I woke a couple times in the night and woke up with my sinus. Nothing beats what happened after I woke...

Was having my lunch and the fight started. Now I think of it, what was the point and reason to even start the fight? It was really some stupid mindless things. I know they care but its my own fucking life especially when it comes to relationships. Do I have to report to them who I been going out with or even who I been fucking? I am sure it will upset them even further! Just leave me alone and let me settle with my own life.

Zoey might be leaving, I am upset about it. To my surprise, I used to kinda dislike her but I have came to realise that is her character, thats what makes her. Now that she might be leaving I am def not happy. I see her good points now...

I just told Herman, maybe next year..... I'll see how things goes... I might just pack my bag and leave Singapore. Maybe I'll go to New York. He asked if I know anyone there, I said no. I am not going to care about my career anymore. I just want to have work, have fun, have money to survive and be happy. I can do any work, waitress, whatever! I just leave and have a best time in my life!

I wanna be like the people in the movies...

I should stop dreaming and just do it already! And I seriously mean it!

I am sick of waiting. I am sick of putting in my all and try to be happy...

Jason Mraz' "We Dance" EP rocks! He is tempting the fans. "We Sing", "We Dance"..... Cant wait for "We Steal Things" cos thats when "We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things" officially launch! The marketing is so well done.

you float on by
oh kiss me with your eyelashes tonight
or eskimo your nose real close to mine
lets mood the lights and finally make it right

(Butterfly - Jason Mraz)

Lonely Empty Soul...

Its almost end of the week again...

I couldnt take it anymore so I went for a massage after work today! 1.5hr massage... I just had to do it. I still feel sore but its so much better than before I swear! The location sucks big time. I waited for about 30mins for a cab after the massage!! Fucking hell... Every cab changing shift at 9.30pm, ya right!

Finally got one and its a crazy driver. I mean crazy as in nuts in the head! He kept trying to talk to me but he was talking some weird nonsense stuff and he kept repeating himself after every 5mins or so! He sings to himself, he laughs to himself... He keep jamming brakes! I almost got car sick for the fucking first time!

I am now home and safe, thank God!

Hungry like fuck. Didnt eat... No choice but McDonalds... Damn... Waiting...

Karim changed his travel plan and not coming to Singapore. Wrote me an email saying he still making the trip to meet me but didnt say when or anything. Crazy...

Raphael is back and he called... Sweet :)

I am going to have PMS soon and surprisingly, Baby is also having PMS somehow! Ya, its amazing how we linked? Fucked up. He be nice when he's happy to do so and he be crazy when he feels like it. Whatever...

I came up with this brilliant idea/plan! I am a fucking genius! Once again I'm going to say, its all up to him now. I know eventually, I'll get sick and tired of everything and I'll be a nun or a whore maybe. Cos I am fucking frustrated with everything! I am exhausted...

I try very hard to make myself happy but in the end, I am just a sucker who feel happy if I manage to make others happy! Stupid right? Even though at every end of the day, I am still that lonely empty soul...

Boring

2 lonely females went for chicken rice at River Valley after work yesterday... Anastasia had cravings for chicken rice... I had no dinner plans and so...

Planned to attend the private Playeur party but in the end, Travis and Oscar didnt wanna go, left me and Tim and we reckon we'll be bored and stuff... Wanted to go for a movie but kinda lazy and well...

We ended up at Hougang Mall! Lol... Brought down my portable harddrive to pass Tim movies. Had a drink at Delifrance and thats it!

Martin called! I wonder why... Chatted for a short while. Hmm.. I think I am still surprised by his call. But well...

Yawnnnn....

Movie before bed? Hmmm.....

Muuuuuu

One minute to 12am and its Monday again! Arghhh... Despites having 4 days of no-work but it still feels so damn short.

I hardly sleep... Its so HOT! I just keep tossing and turning! Eventually, I decided to wake up, especially after receiving a sms from my Mr VIP member! He's in Dubai and needed a table for dinner tonight at a fully booked restaurant. Arghhhh..... In the end he still didnt get a table. I called Dubai 3 times and text him quite many times.

Called Pubear and we were on the phone for about an hour again. He's on Singapore time man! He was still in bed when I called, it was 4am. Lol... I like hearing his just-awake-sleepy-voice. So cute... Especially when he answers the phone saying "Muuuuuuuuuuuu"

Went for a little walk and dinner with my darlings. Decided to go dinner at First Thai since we are going Seah Street, then to Suntec for shopping and chilled at Coffee Bean for a short while before heading home.

Maybe I watch a movie before bed. Hee...

Jaw Dropping

Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle is def not as funny as Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay! Tim said I got hooked, well... He was the one who told me about it. Still very funny, for a very racist movie.

I also watched The Night Listener. What a weird movie... Wouldnt say its good or bad. Its just weird. I cant find a word to explain it somehow.

Only slept at 8.30am... For not many hours and I got up. Surprisingly, not feeling that tired.

Spoke to Pubear for an hour on the phone early in the morning. It was a good chat, we had laughs and we also talked about plans. I am glad its kinda back on track again. Fingers crossed. I really hope things will work out. I'd give anything for it...

Went out for a short while, had dinner with Jan and went Cafe Del Mar for a really short while for some event. Quite boring, to be honest...

Just watched The Mist. Its just jaw dropping!! I didnt expect it to be so good. Pubear told me its not bad and thats how I wanted to watch it. But I think the title is just lame. They should rename it to The Creature, The Project or whatever but not The Mist! Lol...

The ending is just so unexpected and jaw dropping. I am serious!! Hmmm... Still kinda dumbfounded. Its only 3.30am... I am still not sleepy... What should I do?

Travis will be back in a while... We should be heading out later in the day...

Then its argh-oh-God-its-Monday-back-to-work AGAIN!

Used to...

Life is so short...
Francis emailed me... His ex-gf, probably the girl he loves most... is dying after a brain attack :(

I had a great day today! Finally a weekday off work and out. Had a few errands to run, pay my bills, collect Barney's tickets for a client, did a photoshoot, deposit money into bank account etc...

Tim kept me company almost the whole day, after my shoot. While waiting for him I bought 2 dresses from Isetan. I was starving! Craving for Japanese so we went to Tonkichi, really yummy! Went for more shopping... I bought the dress from Pull and Bear finally! They didnt have it on display anymore but the girl got it for me from the store-room when I asked for it!

Went to watch Harold and Kumar Escape from Guantanomo Bay. I didnt watch the first one so I am... ahem... getting it now! Lol... Had a good laugh. Tim said its good to watch something funny to relax. Very true. I wanted to watch 2 movies actually... Superhero Movie should be funny too. But well... Best parts usually on the trailer already, usually that case. Will see how...

The ticket sales person was giving us a 'look' saying "The movie is M18".... What?! You mean we look below 18? Lol... We had a good laugh over this man!

I've learnt so much recently, after all the stupid things that happened. I am growing each time crappy stuff happen on me. I am sure I'll be a better person and having a great life ahead, even if alone. I have wonderful friends by my side :)

I am also starting to wear flip flops out and I think I wanna get some sneakers. Give me feet a rest when I dont have to wear heels. I believe I will get used to flats.... Lets pray my foot injury wont give me much of a problem for doing that!

I also gotta get used to girls giggling and staring at Tim on the street all the time cos he's so cute! Lol... And also him staring at pretty girls. Muahahah... Why no cute guys on the street for me to stare at? Damn!

Now I am hungry... Hahaha...

And I feel my legs aching actually. Wonder if its all the walking or the flip flop :)

Take Me Away!

Happy Labour Day......... Tomorrow :)

Such a short week, love it. But in order to finish up my work, I got kinda exhausted. Been out most part of the day for the past 2 days. It can be exhausting running all over the place and then back to the office clear work.

Taking leave on Friday, got a shoot and I just wanna rest. Many thot I am going somewhere for a long weekend but I really just wanna rest. Take a break from work. I haven take any leave for quite a while. Last time was in January when Pu was here... I think...

Good news! Got another trip coming up in June. Seoul? Tokyo? Bangkok? Still not confirm... I'll have to fight with Herman I guess! Lol... I've not been to Seoul and Tokyo... But I haven been to Bangkok for a long time. But then again, Bangkok can go anytime... But I can meet Frantz there. I been wanting to visit Tokyo... But unless I have someone there or I'll be alone with the Japan office colleagues... Maybe Yongfook? Seoul should be fun... Will not be alone! Hmmm...

Looking forward to June. Shanghai and errr... Either one of those I mentioned. Yay!

Pu said he has decided to look for a job in Vancouver and move out... Not considering Asia first. Yea, sad for me of cos but well... Ultimately, it is his decision, his life, his choice. I did my best and I will still do my best. It will be an end when it has to be...

Think I will watch something before bed tonight... Just cos I haven been doing that for a while. Gonna rest tomorrow... Got no plans anyways... Sleep!!! Best of the best!

I need a massage for real!!! Maybe Friday....... Where to go?

I need a vacation!!! Take me away please........ Far far away......

Oh! James Blunt..... Jon asked me to go together with a few others. I am so overjoyed!!

Tragic

Already had a bad weekend, I was hit by a bad start for the week in the morning. I was so upset. Its the worst feeling ever. The Pu and Mu fantasy almost came to an end. Tragic... I am not giving up. Its something I've been holding on to. No way I am giving up for something stupid that has happened. I believe we can sort it out together.

I know we can make it. Even not, I want the best for you and help you in any ways I can...

Wanted to take half day off to clear my head but I felt so lost. I've got nowhere to go... I dont want to be alone. I'll be more depressed and lost. Marcus called upon receiving my sms. Cant believe my ex-bf actually called to console me. Lol... I was alright until he called, and I starting crying at the couch in the office...

Such a horrible day...

But I made it through...

Dinner with Travis and Oscar... Ended early and I finally took the train home. I have been taking the cab so much. Every end of the day I just feel so restless... Its the feeling when I want to go home so badly yet I dont want to... Confusing sometimes. I really wish I have my own place...

Not that I dont love my parents but I just need my own space. Not having people to question why and what and where... There are times I just dont want to talk...

Saw Janice spotted me at Paragon earlier. It was nice to see her after so long and I am really glad she made it to where she want to be. Why people work hard and I might've worked harder and yet, they get what they want and I dont? I am still happy for her... Very very much so. I know how much hard work we put in previously...

Wrote a very long email to Pu. Perhaps I've been repeating myself too much. I meant well... You're still the one I ever wanted... I might've said some things unpleasant to hear but I was really upset and disappointed. I still wish for the best...

Contradicting

No calls for both shoots. I am not going to agree to the shoot with this stupid guy again. 2nd time he MIA! Work issues? Whatever... Not my problem. I think I'll practice deposit from now on.

I was dying to get outta da house! Mum just keeps nagging and nagging... My internet went fucked up the whole weekend, I dont know why. Maybe cos Elroy keeps downloading stuff and all that. Not enough bandwidth? What about me not getting peaceful rest? Arghhh... I wanna move out!

I locked myself in the room, finally... I cried and cried. Over stupid things and I really miss Pubear alot alot alot. We finally had a chat today and saw each other on cam. That face I so wanna kiss... The smell of him still lingers in my mind. He said he try not to think about relationships, that makes him feel better... Over and over again, we have the same dreams and we are always affected by each others' mood...

Call it fate or stupid...

Travis got back today from flight. So nice for him and Oscar to keep me company. They bought me dinner at Modesto's... I bought them dessert at Haagen-Dazs. It was a great night although we didnt do anything much except the usual food and laughters.

I spaced out a little every now and then but I will do fine. Thanks to all the concerns I get. Think positive as everyone says... Its easy to say but I'll try my best. I know ending my life will not solve any problems, as in the right way.

People just come and go so easily. People also fall in love so easily... There will always be someone you are looking out for. Even though you spend the most times with someone else... There will always be people who contradict themselves with their words.

I still wanna go away... far far away...

and maybe, someday we will meet... and maybe, talk and not just speak...
(Same Mistakes by James Blunt)

Got it

Who doesnt want to be normal and happy? I want it so badly. In a night, I was told of the worst things I ever wanna hear and yes... I am very upset now but what can I do? Maybe they are all right. I also kinda lost 2 'friends' in a night... and I know its hard for me to pick up some pieces. I so want to say I wanna have them as good friends cos they are nice people but its hard... for me...

Its time for me to really grow up. I should stop complaining, I should stop being honest and true, I should stop playing a fool and be mysterious. Right... These were being told by people, imagine that!

Time to get a new camera and start taking pictures instead of ranting over and over again. Even my readership has dropped like half! Am I getting boring to you now?

Notice I haven been talking about Roley in the recent entries? Cos we haven been talking for the recent 2 weeks. He has been busy and I just stop messaging him. I keep thinking of negative things in my head which affects me greatly. Being so far away from each other is really a pain. The taste of long distance relationship is the worst thing ever!

I was feeling too upset and he was awake...

-- RoLLs - says:
mu.. don't be depress
-- RoLLs -says :
only allowed to be depress if we in same city
| J @ S | says:
if we in same city, we wont be depress
| J @ S | says:
mu depress cos of that too
-- RoLLs - says:
pu try not to think about relationships these days
| J @ S | says:
the thing about us.. is way more complicated
-- RoLLs - says:
maybe too complicated

-- RoLLs - says :
muuuuuu... thinking of mu disappear already making pu sad
| J @ S | says:
mu just wants pu to be happy
-- RoLLs - says:
pu happy if mu happy
-- RoLLs - says:
but pu depress if mu depress

- RoLLs - says:
what make pu feel sad is mu making pu have thoughts about mu dissapear forever

-- RoLLs - says:
thought mu would like to know that pu's msn pic is one of pu's fav pix of mu.. even tho mu may not like it pu think mu so adorable in that pic
| J @ S | says:
mu was silly.. mu thinking "ahh, pu put my pic! pu must be missing me"
| J @ S | says:
mu so silly
-- RoLLs - says:
pu put cause pu talking to harry about mu thus pu think of mu and put pic
- RoLLs - says:
pu remember mu think the shark egg so gross but pu think so cool
-- RoLLs - says:
such things make pu smile cause mu sometimes be little girl so cute
| J @ S | says:
and only pu thinks that way
-- RoLLs - says:
pu's msn pic is mu being little girl
-- RoLLs - says:
aiya of course mu... mu is always a little baby to pu

I seriously was thinking of disappearing one day.....

Tell me, how to grow up? Have I not? What should I do to be happy? What should I do to make people take me seriously? Play hard to get? Be snobbish? I didnt know being too honest and true wasnt right...

Japanese Food

Gonna say the same thing... Another week has passed! WTF!!! So fast!

Celebrated Aunt Helen's birthday on Thursday. Family dinner... It was great. I like that kinda happy feeling dinner. Although something not very pleasant happened after the dinner but am happy to know that its all okay now.

Got invited to an event yesterday but I didnt go. No one to bring along. How pathetic... Deek asked me out for dinner so I went. Japanese food at Liang Court. Love it. Had Japanese lunch too but it was crappy. Went for a drive then home.

I cant believe I slept so early last night! Was I really tired or just too bored?

I slept for 13hrs straight! And I am still feeling sleepy. WTF?!

No plans today... It could be another boring day. Unless..................

2 shoots tomorrow. Money!!! Ciao!

Diamond!

Yes!! Its mid-week. So fast... Went to Singapore Expo today for FHA. Freaking 7 halls!! Even parking is a pain... Crazy kick ass trade exhibition. Am glad we went for it. Really eye opener!

Met up with my darlings after work. Dinner at this HK Cafe at Bugis. I am still feeling full now. The portion so big even for side dishes! We over ordered cos I was damn hungry. Stupid Travis wanted to see white gold stuff and we went into Citigems.....

I thought might as well get a chain since I had the previous one broken for a long time. I have no chance to wear my pendant. They are having some discount here and there... The chain is $126 after discount. Fine...

Being nosey and looked at their high-end range of diamond rings... Then I wanna see if they have that ring that I liked for a long long time. Yes Babe! The one like yours!! They have it and guess what? I bought that too!!! Omg... I must've been so crazy and wanna make myself feel happy... Hee... Excuses I know!

It was quite a good deal though... With Citibank credit card, there's an additional 8% on top of 30%.... So it only cost $591 instead of $918! Ok, dont get me wrong, I paid a small portion and the rest on installment. I aint that cash rich. I still dont know why I bought it.

Oh... And before that, I was shopping around alone... Bought a sexy halter-neck top from Topshop. Lol... Its very pretty and $59. Good deal right? I usually like those expensive range in those shops and they are usually not worth the money but this one is alright! So I bought it.

Crazy Crazy...

I am still full.....

Need to buy 4D (lottery) this weekend... Lucky number please come out so I can go for a holiday!! And recover back my silly purchases! Hee...

Travis bought me a pair of gorgeous pearl white Havainas from Perth!! Wooo Hooo! Happy Happy... And 5 pairs of flashies from China. Muacks!

Laughters

My new shades!

Loves it big... But yea, I've got Asian nose! It doesnt hold that well :)

Cool I know... Lol

My new hat (another) and its frigging cool aint it?? Travis always has good taste :D

The day just went by so fast! Wasnt that great but wasnt that unpleasant either. Had some issues and kinda pisses me off but well... Am trying to not bring back issues from work after working hours!

Had an event this evening. It was boring... Yawnnn...

Raphael came over for a while... He is so funny he's the type of guy who is charming and can just hits it off with just anybody he meet! After we went to The Screening Room. I heard so much about that place but has not been. Its a great place! I'm gonna bring Travis and Oscar over one of the nights. They will love it!

I had a great time tonight. I forgot about all issues, in terms of work and what not. I totally had no regret meeting Raphael instead of going home after feeling upset over some stupid stuff! Phew! I told Herman if I dont go to work tomorrow, I would've died from laughters overdosed!

Now its late and damn I am drying my hair before I can sleep :(

Tomorrow is going to be like shit!!!

R is not just for ROLEY! Oopssss!! Did I just said that? Damn... I dont mean it!